Renewable Revolution

I spent a lot of time dealing with death as ya'll know.  I'm not sure that one can deal with one's own death before the time comes, but I've done some preparations.  Namely I have a place picked out that I will arrive at upon just dying.  It's a vortex in Sedona that I visited recently.  Even if I find myself in Sedona I will not go back to that place.  It is reserved for my death so that I will know I have died. 

I'm only 35, but the first signs of my physical deterioration are arriving.  It's looking like I'll probably develop arthritis (my grandma was ate up with it).  The joints in my fingers are starting to give me mild pain from time to time.  Like a bruise, but with no bruising.  I've had a broken molar for a year or so now, but luckily there is no pain involved.  Other than those things it's taking me longer to recover from hard days of work than it used to.  I don't want you ole farts to think I'm complaining, I'm not, just chiming in with my thoughts on death and dying. 

Lately I've been thinking about death because of the things I just outlined.  I used to think about death and say "I'm not afraid to die."  I didn't have any physical signs of deterioration yet.  Now, just with the few minor things that have come about because my body is aging, I'm already thinking about it more.  I can't imagine what it will be like when I start having health problems due to my aging.  I'll get cancer at some point.  As far as I know 3 of my family members got cancer and two died from it.  Diabetes abounds as does heart disease.  I attribute all of the modern day health problems to the chemicals we've created that are ubiquitous in the air we breath, food we eat, and water we drink.  We have made our world toxic to human life.

I've watched people die on the back of an ambulance, and I've seen them dead before they even got a chance on the ambulance.  I've talked to people as they were dying and it certainly is the great equalizer of humanity. 

I think it's healthy to marinate on your mortality from time to time.  It helps keep things in perspective.  I read an article a while back that was written by a hospice nurse.  She said the number one thing that people regret on their death bed is that they didn't live life how they wanted to...they lived it how society wanted them to.  They wished that they had done more of the things that they wanted to do. 

I think there is a lot of wisdom there.  We should all live as if we will die tomorrow, and we should live that way everyday.